Going out on a limb today to tell you, our readers, that I struggle with anxiety. We believe its totally a hormonal thing, which began after the birth of our first born. It comes and goes with the waves of PMS. You know how sometimes your PMS is worse than your actual period, then sometimes your period is way harder than PMS, and then there's times when you actually start your period, you feel so much better and don't mind the annoyance, just as long as you don't wake up ill, emotional, and crampy like the days while you were PMS'ing. Ok, so if you are one of those incredibly fortunate women who's not affected by hormonal shifts, one of those women who wakes up one day and says, oh well I'll be damned, I started my period, or one of those women who's never had a cramp in their life or backaches, headaches, grumpiness, mood swings, zits in weird places, dizziness, clumsiness, fainting spells, doped up on midol days or the dreaded anxiety ridden days then I HATE YOU. HAHAHA! Just kidding, well only a little bit, but seriously, what is up with hormones. And then you throw in a nice thyroid disorder and you got the icing on the cake.
In all honesty, there are way worse things than hormonal shifts, you learn how to deal with them, that thyroid medicine is a life saver, the normal dosage of tylenol or ibuprofen never does the trick-you gotta double that bia, take a nap, drink some wine and in my case take your anxiety meds. Some months are better than others and some just plain ole suck, like when you think you are going crazy and your husband has to remind you that its just your period, you will be ok in a couple days-oh the blessing of a sensitive and understanding husband...never take for granted.
In thinking about this inherited (yes, E & J & our mom struggle with this too) burden,
I came across this quote...
It struck me that isn't this relative to all of our struggles, the more we dwell on them, the more room they take up in our lives, the more they control our thoughts and steal our JOY...so Im learning to release them, lay down this burden of anxiety, stop dwelling and obsessing, take it for what its worth and be thankful.
"Rejoice always, pray continually, and in everything give thanks,
for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."
1 Thessalonians 5:18